Complicated Feelings: Bodies and Guilt

Some time ago I wrote here about weightlifting helping alleviate my focus on the scale and size. Welp. I feel like I have to be honest with you: I don’t always feel that way. Lately I have felt like a tangle of emotions regarding weight, size and the gym. Guilt becomes my overriding feeling. And that is … Continue reading Complicated Feelings: Bodies and Guilt

On My Nightstand: Eats of Eden*

Tabitha Blakenbiller and I might be long-distance, separated by geography and years, sisters. I read her essay and recipe collection, Eats of Eden, over the last week and marveled at our similar experiences. I first talked to Tabitha a year or two ago when I emailed her about contributing to her blog. My husband had suggested I … Continue reading On My Nightstand: Eats of Eden*

A Personal Impact of Awful Politics: I Haven’t Been Frugal, and I Miss my Kitchen

Lord, y’all. The nation’s political situation feels, when I’m not optimistic, like the nation is wrecked. It’s never been perfect, but it’s always had fantastic ideals worth striving for. It has always proclaimed it was exceptional for its freedom, its liberties: a point I always thought was nonsense (we’re not exceptional, we’re like much of the rest … Continue reading A Personal Impact of Awful Politics: I Haven’t Been Frugal, and I Miss my Kitchen

Everything’s Exhausting: Title IX

Things have been happening so fast at the federal, state, and personal level that I haven’t had the wherewithal to process and post much in ages. Two special-needs kittens are exhausting, as it turns out, between vet visits and adjusting them to overnight sleeping (rather than locking them into a room of their own, they … Continue reading Everything’s Exhausting: Title IX

What, to Us All, is the 4th of July?

    In 1852, escaped slave and extraordinary orator Frederick Douglass gave his speech, “What to the Slave is the 4th of July?” in Rochester, NY, in those days a hotbed of radical activism. In his speech, Douglass reminded his audience of the achievements of 1776, praising the men who achieved liberty from England and parsing, … Continue reading What, to Us All, is the 4th of July?

How I stopped worrying so much about my weight and came to love heavy lifting

For many, many years, I, like many people, hated exercise. I also wasn’t too keen on my body. I saw exercise mainly as a tool for body modification, but one which left me generally tired, frustrated, and easily thwarted. I am 5’ tall. I am genetically predisposed to big ol’ legs, and I saw these … Continue reading How I stopped worrying so much about my weight and came to love heavy lifting

Let’s talk about relationships with money.

We all have them, but I don’t know how often we explore them or consider their roots. How does money make you feel? Anxious? Eager? Safe? Afraid? Our emotions about money oftentimes fuel our money habits, and are complicated by our historical past. Women, in particular, have historically been responsible for a home’s consumption while … Continue reading Let’s talk about relationships with money.